the no.2 affinity

i've had enough of being second best. i've had enough of fun and laughter. i've had enough of going out. i've had enough of some people. i've had enough of spicy food. i've had enough of my flu. i've had enough of not being able to breathe properly. i've had enough of lies. i've had enough of playtime. i've had enough of coffeetalks. i've had enough of spending money. i've had enough of everything.

i've also had enough of myself for that matter.

hello you, the girl who is gonna be stucked in the room on the 3rd floor for now!

dear you

i need a miracle and alot of granted prayers and wishes from the man above.

i want my soccer friend to be okay and fully restored to her tiptop 100% fitness level so that she can play with us again asap!

i want us to all just be mentally strong as a team on/off the pitch.

i want us to win!

i want us to play like zidane, beckham, ronaldo (fat/handsome), ronaldinho, robertocarlos, etc.

i want us all to just drop all stupid thoughts like wanting to suddenly quit the team and stuff. so random lah. hahaha. because everyone of us matter. much more than any other sports teams' member i know.

and lastly, i want//need//must pass my ct2s! or else the mum will kill.

AMEN!

liars go to hell!

i'm suppose to be one of the world's happiest since i'm fortunate enough to have my ct2 postpone till a later date, even though its the coming saturday. my friends are mugging their butts off over physics i suppose. goodluck aiight. s25 should stop becoming so honourable by taking the last position amongst the rest of em classes every now and then. other classes need and want the attention too!

anyway, tmr is soccergirls' first ever FAS tournament for the year. we're up against tjc i think. or izzit njc? haha whatever. not important lah. we'll just succumb to thrashing them.

really. i'm not joking.

then kok should just kiss all our asses for pushing the ct2s earlier than the promised "one week after your last match". bullshit sia.

i've got a really sad story to tell now. i'm sick. i cant stop tearing and blowing my nose and feeling all weak and limp. and i want it all to go away. at least by tmr 2pm.

and oh. did you know that mushroomsoup is the new rice for me now?

project : sleep

its good friday today. jesus died on the cross for us, thats what the bible says. to save mankind, god sacrificed his only son. seriously, i dont think we're worth that noble act.

yesterday i was suppose to go church. but i did not. the yesterday of 2-3 years ago salt started out this meditation kinda thing. the washing of feet. forgiveness and stuff. you know, the solemn thing. this year i heard it was different. but i wasnt there anyway. ohwell.

oh what the heck. i'm so deprived of sleep of late. ugh.

and i need money. whats worst is that my common tests isnt gonna be one week after our last match. its gonna be next week too! infuriating, no?

kok doesnt know how to handle the school. in my opinion lah.

i think even the janitor knows better.

chikapom!

i am not on a hiatus. i just didnt have time to blog. i cant even catch up with sleep. haha. what a loser.

soccer camp ended i think eons ago. it was good i guess. ohwell, having said that i needa exclaim loudly that i hate soccer! it made my calf size unproportionate lah. (like its not ugly enough)! so irritating right.

anyway. i totally aint kat theGREATEST now. you should see me on the pitch man. haha. i'm only proud of the big ugly bruise i got on my knee when someone kicked me with their stud. besides that, i'm just an ordinary ant.

school days for me are ending at a much later time. i've lost all control of my sleeping time. its getting earlier and earlier. meaning no more tv timing! and i can bid farewell to my friends as well. pekcek lah pekcek!

it'll be normal to equate not having fun to a mountain of untouched cash. boy is that statement totally false! bitch sia my wallet is practically empty! can faint and die.

besides soccer, there's nothing i can think of now. note the amount of corruption man. ugh. and my left ankle is like retarded lah! how to be ronaldo!

i'll just settle for henry then. the handsome black boy!

viva la bomb.

the happy girl got herself a very happy ending today by hanging out with two of her best friends which she has known since forever. yay!

but its all so certain that after this meet, our next coffeetalk will happen only in the next year. everyone is ever so busy. and sleepy. lol. ohwell. much love okay.

we ate like giants by the way. ordering everything and getting a bill of over a 60bucks. it was just food. and so yes. from a 110%, i think its now 210.

this morning we had this soccer match against some professional lawyers. lol. what a cool name. they play the game freaking intelligently lah please. its like chess to them i think.

ugh. i'm gonna be a lawyer too. so that i can win soccer games also. >.<

despite whatever, always remember that we are the champions! hohoho.

goodbye.